There’s an ADHD phenomenon called “anticipatory paralysis” that goes like this:
You have a dental appointment or important Zoom call scheduled at 3pm. No big deal, right? That’s in the middle of the afternoon. You can get lots of work done until then.
Only the ADHD brain doesn’t work that way. It anticipates the scheduled interruption to the point that you can’t focus on the work at hand because you know you’re going to have to stop what you’re doing and tend to that other thing no matter how focused you are on the first thing. The entire day up to the appointment is basically shot because your brain chemistry puts you in a holding pattern until then.
Turns out an election is basically the super-sized version of anticipatory paralysis when you’re running for office. Here’s this thing you agreed to do that will take five months to resolve, and the result will determine your schedule for the next two years! Good luck with that creative brain work, pal!
That said, the day is at hand tomorrow, and by Wednesday morning, I will know what the next few years bring. And then my brain will hopefully take the parking brakes off and I can finish the several projects I’m behind on…
Running for public office has been an interesting experience. I’ve had to leave my comfort zone in many ways, but I’ve learned a lot, and I’ve met more people in my home town and the other towns in the district in the last five months than I’ve met in the almost 20 years since we moved here. A lot of good, smart, and motivated folks have been doing a ton of work in support of my candidacy. It’s been motivating and humbling, and that alone has made the time and effort worth it to me, no matter which way the election turns out tomorrow.
And once the dust settles on Wednesday, it’s back to work at full throttle. I have two books to get out for you all before the beginning of the legislative session in January. To those of you who have sent messages of support or even contributed to my campaign–thank you very much for your confidence in me. And everyone who’s waiting for ECLIPSE or the draft of the Super-Secret New Project–sorry for the slow progress, but I hope you can agree that the delay was for a worthy cause. I’ll write the books no matter what, but this was my shot to jump in when I could to help improve things, at least on the local and state levels.
(If you’d like to get a glimpse of what Candidate Marko is like on the campaign trail, here’s a recent interview with me on Steve Marchand’s podcast where we talk about my candidacy, what I can bring to the State House, and the district I’m running to represent. I also talk a bit about writer brain and the public/private aspects of being a political candidate.)
See you on the other side of tomorrow–and if you’re a resident of Grafton-18, I hope you vote for me when you’re in that booth!


